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As you can tell, I have my work cut out for me.
The list is pretty typical.
Exhausting? You could say that.

can i just skip over these next 4 years?

ummm
sorry
i've forgotten about this journal.
i have far too much homework.
i'm exhausted all the time.
i wish i were done with accessory design.

ahhhh

whatever

worst sleep ever
felt so sick
in turn, did not attend morning class and not attending handbag design.
i feel a little better though.

school is ok
i'm okay
i think

i'm awesome and got tickets to the tyra show for next friday.
things are weird between a certain someone.

i dont feel like updating anymore

I woke up and everything outside had a white blanket of snow. It was still coming down. It made me happy. Ish.
I got out of Footwear early. The teacher does everything different. The process is a lot longer. Not too sure how I feel about that. My science class is terrible. 4 hours of bullshit and then 30 minutes later I get 3 hours of psychological nonsense. I have classes from 9AM-9:30PM. Such a long day. I'm tempted to drop my science class. Very tempted. I was so tired last night. I have English at 3 and then I'm done with classes for the week. Which is nice, but I already have so much to do. 6 color sketches of a stupid "box bag". How ugly. Perhaps I could do that now instead of taking a nap. I don't know. Did I mention my breakfast has been terrible the past few days? I had a muffin this morning. Didn't think it would be bad, but it tasted dry and had a strange after taste. FAIL.

Hello blog I have not updated in the longest time. I am still in Florida and shall return to the city that never sleeps on the 24. I hope no fucking bird gets in my damn engine. That's all I have to say.

This one's for you Mom!

Let's look back on this first semester...
Okay. Well. It was definitely a learning experience for sure! It seems as if I've had more downs than ups, but that's okay. I hope this next semester will be better. I've been so incredibly lucky in millions of aspects. Friends. I have the GREATEST friends. It's crazy how me and Gabby are roommates. We both looooove Keira Knightley and models and fashion and really stupid funny things. Christina is awesome too. Tiana is hilarious. Devon is so sweet. And the people in my Accessory Block are so crazy. I like most of them and they like me too! Which is awesome. I was afraid I wouldn't talk to many people. We all chose the same block for next semester too. After my Anatomy exam this morning Justine practically pummeled me when she hugged me! And Michelle gave me a sweet Christmas card. Aside from all the crying and doubting myself, having lovely friends is by far the greatest thing. And my family! They help me when I fall. Oh and I can't forget about Toni! I love it when she comes in my room and says, "Oh my gosh! You won't believe this!"
I probably could have studied a bit more for my Anatomy exam but Gabby and I were being ridiculous last night. That's okay, I think I did pretty good though. I actually think I did good on most of my finals actually. I have to write one more English essay and email it to my teacher by Monday. At 12 I have to get my painting and Color Book from my 2D Design teacher and then I'm done! Me and Gabby are going to Serendipitys!!! One of my favorite places. Ever.
Caitlin is calling me right now and I'm not answering because I know she will want to come in my room and lurk Facebook and I really don't want to deal with her right now! Does that make me a bad person? I hope not.

So last night I finished my paper and my painting. Around like 8 or something, this sudden feeling of tiredness came over me and I just collapsed on my bed! I didn't want to get up. I kept wishing that my handbag was magically finished. Ah well. I have to go to 2D Design at 12, hopefully she'll let me go early because I finished my painting already. I am going to my friend's apartment to sew my handbag which I hope to finish by tonight! If not, Sunday, early Sunday. I just want it done! I hate thinking about it all the time. After my handbag is finished, I hope to be stress free! STRESS FREE! Something that happens not too often. I can't wait to go home. I hope working at Godiva again will be okay. I hope I remember the chocolates and such too. Hm. I think I remember.

This semester is almost over. Hallelujah! There is so much that I have to do. Well, not too much left because I got so much done in the beginning of the week because I worked like a mad man. I finished my shoes yesterday. I still have to sew my bag which is due Tuesday. I have to finish this 8 page Anatomy Term paper which is due TOMORROW! I also have to finish some stupid painting for 2D Design tomorrow. That's pretty much it and then next week is just finals and I'm done. I talked to one of the people from my department this morning and my new plan is to do Accessory Design for my associates and then for my Bachelors I am going to do Fashion Merchandising. I think it will be very beneficial and helpful towards my future as a hopeful stylist. Last night me and Gabby had to be models for Tiana's photo-shoot thingmabob. I had my green strapless Betsey Johnson dress on and she had me wear a pair of her sneakers. It was freezing!!!!! I kept stopping and putting my jacket on because I was so cold and shaking and no fun. One guy on the street made a comment about Gabby's short skirt. He yelled, "Short skirt!" and then I immediately replied with "Small penis!" AHAHAH. Oh New York...

Today was productive. Still have tons of things to do.
But productive.

I really don't know what to say...
I've never felt more overwhelmed or stressed in my entire life. Well, maybe not my entire life, but close. I have so much stuff that I have to get done in two weeks. I'm praying that things won't be so crazy! Please God! Please! I can't handle any more shit! So, when I go home I'll have a job at Godiva again. I have this feeling that I'll regret it but it's just for the money, which I need BADLY. And I'll probably try to transfer to the one in Times Square after break. I hope things become more clear and un-stressful soon. Because if things don't...I just don't know...

From the past few days:

Saw EQUUS with Daniel Radcliffe. That was really good. And yes, his penis is small.
Saw Speed the Plow with Jeremy Piven. That hurt my brain. Got him to sign my playbill.
Went everywhere it seems like over the weekend. Uptown, downtown, uptown, downtown...
Chelsea Market.
Diners.
I ran into Goldstein last night. That was cool and weird at the same time.
I need a job BADLY. After Christmas break, I think I'll just go to Godiva and work there. I really need it!
I'm very sleepy. I have to go to class at 3 and then some seminar later tonight for my leather class. >.<
One more week til I go home. CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!

It's freezing.

I am trying to keep it together, but on the inside, I'm falling apart.

What an exciting night. So, when we found out Obama won, everyone started screaming. EVERYWHERE. So we of course decided to go to Times Square. That was exciting!!! Everyone was screaming for him and cheering. People are still screaming and clapping and honking their horns as I type this. Walking back from Times Square I saw Nicolas! *sigh* People are actually getting really annoying. How am I going to sleep with all this? I'm really happy that Obama won. I colored my hair last night, well Christina did and I never got so many people commenting on it.

I think Obama will be greaaaaaat.

Can't wait to go home.
Can't wait to go home.
Can't wait to go home.

If I had the money, I'd go buy a whole new set of clothes. I want to re-vamp my style. I'm just bored with myself lately!

I feel like I should be writing in this more often, but due to the current emotional/mental state I am in, it is very difficult for me to have any motivation or desire to. I have had this constant headache for two days. I feel completely worthless and just want to stay in bed all day. Sure it's mostly homesickness, but it's also a whole shit load of other things which will sound completely ridiculous if I list them here. (And no I am not on my period nor will I be getting it soon.)

Just make it all go away.

Oh my gosh! I really want to go see that!

I'm exhausted.